I hope I never have to hand write anything ever again (I doubt that will happen T_T ) because my handwriting is atrocious like so bad. It looks like a 5 year old wrote it >.<”
It’s been a while since weather has depressed me. It’s what I would call perfect weather: A little bit cloudy but not enough to make it looks like it’s going to rain, a comfortable temp not to hot but cool enough to still be able to wear pants and long sleeves with a light warm breeze. This kind of weather reminds me of a girl that i really really really liked because this would be the weather we usually ended up hanging out on. It makes me think of how much I miss her being around :/
Fucking hell! Just fucking shoot me.
It infuriates me how “dumb” my nephew is I know I know he’s only 9 but still it’s like he’s not even trying and expects to be spoon fed everything, It also makes me wounder what are they teaching in school? and it makes more sense why kids in the US seems dumber then kids anywhere else. It feels like we have to play catch up to meet with everyone else in the world :/ I know I’m not smart, I know I’m dumb, forgetful etc etc but sometimes kids makes me feel like I’m a freaking genius!
Athena is getting on my last nerves, adding to the fact that I haven’t been getting a good night’s rest before her I am even more so not getting one with her around. It’s 10:30pm and I’m really tired I normally go to bed in about 4hrs while being wide awake but i can anymore because she wakes me up at 5-6am every day. Adding to that I can’t do anything without having to stop every 2-5mins to get after her for getting into something that she shouldn’t be. The only time she isn’t getting into trouble or running around my room and bouncing off the walls is when she is sleeping…during the day…..I don’t like having to go to bed so early and wake up so early I hate not being awake during the night but I can’t sleep during the day because it messes with my equilibrium and my head. I’ve done it a few time before and it didn’t end so well, also it’s summer time and the AC for my room doesn’t work so I have to have a fan in my room to keep it somewhat cool but if it’s hot outside it’ll get somewhat hot in my room and I can’t sleep in that condition at all. I think there’s more but my brain is mush and i don’t really know if any of this is making sense at all so good night.
uuugggghhhhh I’m dying uggh R.I.P. So long cruel world!
I know I’ll never be happy because there’s this anger inside of me that has a violent and hateful reactions to things. It’s unpredictable sometimes I’ll get mad at something that normally wouldn’t bother me at all but for some unknown reason it will piss me off to no end until I just burst. My anger is like a balloon it just builds up getting bigger and bigger until it just pops and then it’s fizzled out. It takes time for it to build up it’s not like a I go from nothing to hulk in matter of seconds (I’m not bruce banner) It takes a few days more long for it to build up but still it’s there *sighs* I need to mellow out for a bit.
I feel to tired to muster any energy to be sociable today soooo this will have to do…..Hi.